Soul Glow

Once upon a time I promised myself that I would dive into my past and deeply reflect for a better understanding towards my life. You know, soul searching and stuff. I thought about what influences me, what drives me to a deeper understanding of myself. I thought about my cravings and about what it means to be fully satisfied. Sometimes that’s just an ice cold diet coke on a warm summer day, while I’m driving in my car and belting my 'Recently added' downloads from ITunes. But what about my real cravings. Those guilty pleasures. We all have them. Demands, addictions, something we always want more of. At what point are we satisfied?

If I could interview my soul, I think it would tell me it wants more then what it should want when it doesn’t even know why it wants it. Make sense? Thought not. It seems as if my whole life has been devoted to satisfying an unsatisfied part of myself. I am the first to admit, I get blinded by dark parts of this world causing me to say and do things I consciously wouldn't do in a clear state of mind. I’ve learned that by bearing you’re most secretive, sensitive, and immature parts of your soul to others we become mutually connected. You learn your strengths, faults, your truths, and what you try so hard to cover up. You cannot expect people to emotionally connect with you, if you close your soul off to them. 

This is life. We are born to connect, and find similarities and differences. We are born to satisfy one another’s souls because often we leak so much of our own and naturally we become empty. It isn’t up to me to tell you which way to walk on your journey, which path to take, or what to look for on the way. But it is a part of  the craving of my soul to share what I’ve seen. This is a self fulfillment of reflection along my search for a further understanding of myself. Why am I the way I am, and why are we all the way we are? 

You want to know what the most important thing to me is? It’s waking up everyday knowing I’m living out my dream because I have the chance to do something I love. Its owning the moment and breathing the air of today, saying what I mean, and showing how I feel, never backing down and proving I’m alive, owning up to my mistakes and accepting apologies. The very most important thing to me is never forgetting how good it feels to be alive. Stories, encounters and experiences along the way have all influenced my craving of self-seeking. From love, to hate, to inspirations, and dissatisfaction. I am constantly in pursuit of capturing a friendship with my inner-self. At the end of my walk, I hope to meet God at the gate and stand before him with a clear conscience and an honest self-discovery to tell him that I have used every ounce of my knowledge and experiences to understand the gift he gave me. My life, my soul. 

Hope you're continuing to have a blessed week!