I'm working on my patience, I'm working on my self-doubt. I'm working on me.
I am a work in progress.
Nowhere near perfect, nowhere near acceptable.
Just in constant reflection of my capabilities, my limits, and the depth of my heart.
Now honestly,
tell me how people are supposed to be truly happy..?
tell me how people are supposed to be truly happy..?
We must learn these things about ourselves, before we are capable of learning them about others. God is so simple. And, we, we are beyond complex.
One of my favorite sayings is,
'Keep calm in the center of the storm.'
Years ago, you couldn't convince me this was at all possible. But, beyond the people pleasing, the hatred, the betrayal, the heartache, the denial, and the chaos, I found a stable ground. A place where only I can go. A sacred and peaceful spot in my conscience, where I could freely believe in myself. That had no judgment, no shame. Just clarity.
I don't know how I found it. But, I'm convinced we all find this little piece of heaven when we are ready and able to experience it's effects.
A great trial in my life, was looking around at the world with all of its irony, drudgery, and betrayal. And knowing I was a contributor.
A great satisfaction in my life, was realizing and accepting that life is scary as Hell. And none of your thoughts and actions can be taken back. Only accepted, and used for growth.
The importance of a helping hand, a comfortable embrace, and a patient ear, is becoming more and more real to me.
Sometimes all someone really needs is for you to listen to them. Remember this next time your younger sibling is pestering you with busy and agitating conversation, or your old friend from high-school wants to meet up for a chat and coffee. Remember this next time you are begging God for a blessing or a sign that someone, somewhere out there, can possibly understand what you are going through.
You never truly know the extent of someones storm.
Until you stop, look, and listen to the heavy rain.
At this point, you might just be able to find clarity in your own.
xo.

Hutch all i can say is that is beautiful. I enjoy your writing and wisdom. I hope your well. And I'm sorry.. I do love you tons.
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