if everyday goes like this, how do we survive?

The longing of wanting that 'something' more brews within me like a ticking time bomb.

The stability of staying comfortable and composed with subtle lifestyle changes is what we strive for, right? Finding the ideal job, making the right amount of money, marrying the right person, having the happiest family, being the right weight, saying the right things.

The steps to happiness are labeled in a correct order that is appealing to follow.

I'm no different. I want all of it. I want the order of how it's suppose to go.

Because having and pursuing all these steps keeps me grounded and settled. 

Problem is, we get lost in the lists. We lose ourselves a little in the process and you never seem to find whatever it is you want, when your looking for it. Our paths change and life happens. While we're planning it's stepping stones, a monsoon comes and knocks us into the river. We struggle for a bit, we rinse off, we rise and we continue to this invisible destination of completeness. 

My reminder of reality to myself is this..

Hey. Today doesn't have to go as planned. Be okay with the outcome. It's not always going to feel right. Make the best of each and every possibility. Know that you do not have control of what goes on, on the road. But your holding the reigns.

Suddenly the expectations, the to-do lists, the steps of how it should go, aren't so overwhelming anymore.

I'm happy, I'm listening and I'm in love with the possibility of uncertainty.
Live on.